Lesson 2013: Intention 2014 ~ #1

Love Myself.

Photo by Amber Boydston

This year humbled me. 
This year rocked my world.
In six months time...
My 10 yr relationship ended hard. We found out my mom has pretty far along cancer.
And for the grand trine of the year, my father
who was sexually abusive died.
These 3 experiences in 6 months time = earthquake of me.
I cracked and then I cried and prayed for a better life.     

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Poking its way through the rubble was the pure gold of me.     
On top of the gold were thick concrete layers, impressions of me.
And they were crumbling down. The pain was intense.
We would understand trauma more if we could see it.
This year I walked around with
my abdomen wrapped,
my head bandaged,
and my wounded root reaching for new ground.
Through the pain, I found me.
And what did she say?

In order to love anyone else unconditionally,
I must first love myself unconditionally.
Wasn't I supposed to learn this as a kid?
It's the spiritual food that feeds us.
We need it to thrive.
Self-love.
Road to living my purpose is this simple.
May I see my blessings and use them to heal my weaknesses.
It's what being human is all about.
It's time to...
~ Reclaim Me ~                    

Photo by Amber Boydston

 
     ~ This Year 2014          I Love Myself~

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Photos by Amber Boydston