 i remember clearly the first time i yelled at my son he was 3 1/2 and he looked at me he gave a confused laugh thinking it was a joke i made it a good long stretch without accessing my mother's meanness bless her heart loved her dearly but she could be mean like it was nobody's business the stress of life got me my son had already witnessed domestic violence we left many times going to my sister's or friends' houses there was the time i spent my 36 birthday in the domestic violence shelter these are stories i don't tell often but they are a part of me just like my father's mental illness + abuse just like watching my mom die from cancer + chemo leaving me with no answers of how she left this abuse occur for over a decade when i was kid bruised but not broken scars no longer wounds seeping from the past  my story my past i thought maybe just maybe i could escape just be a happy mom with a happy kid i kept it all together til i started to crumble til i had nothing left to give stress building til it hit a breaking point til it all fell apart anyway... * my ex left me * my son + i moved back to ny to care for my mom * my father died in his sleep in a halfway house * my mom died at home surrounded by family i couldn't deal i did so much yelling i reacted in anger to my kid being a kid my son became so aggressive emotional breakdowns outbursts meltdowns people began to worry about us i worried about us then it was done i call it my year of  it was the year i had to go so deep just to stay afloat it was the year i developed the tools most parent educators never learn life taught me the alchemy of taking the hardest emotions in our lives in our children's lives grief + anger and turning this hard stuff into our places of power strength peace calm our emotional gifts  we can't do this work alone together we can do this magic of transforming emotional breakdowns to emotional breakthroughs we can decrease the frequency + intensity of emotional breakdowns in your family while building a well of emotional resiliency from the inside out to last a lifetime You Got This.
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Toni
5/29/2018 02:59:36 pm
Megan, this is beautifully written from your heart. Thank you for your courage and openness in sharing this.
Elyse
6/1/2018 10:27:37 am
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Mama Megan
Hi friends, I write from the heart to tell my life story, and the story of those in my neighborhood called life. Research shows that our children's emotional & mental health is contingent upon us parents being able to tell our life story, or "coherent narrative." This is my coherent narrative, my life story in the making, with some of what I love in life too. My goal is to share my life in a way that is real, uplifting & positive- sometimes serious, sometimes fun. In my practice, I inspire parents to empowerment through reclaiming our life stories and learning respectful discipline. My work is my offering to our children- our future. Wishing you all a happy family! 
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