November 14th

Today my boy is six
Told me
He's half-way 
Between
A toddler 
And a teen
No way
I thought
But
He's right

Also said
He's sad
To see
Five
Gone
And that is life
My dear boy
That is why
We live every day
To the fullest
And why we let go of 
The past

Last night
We let go of lots
From this year
Past
And then
We gave thanks
For all we loved
And love

And set
Our sights
On more
Of all
We love
For this year
For six
Half way 
Between
A toddler
And a teen
That's my boy

My baby
I held in my arms
For the first time
6 years ago
My Phoenix boy
Who came to us
Our gift from God
Our boy
Both 
Sweet and strong
Wild and calm 
As can be
Just depending
For that is
My boy of
Six 
And 
Five hours
14 minutes
Right now

Some miracle
Window
Opens
For parents
On their 
Children's birthdays
Grace of God 
Is ours
Faith
Hope 
In Life
Our future
Shines bright

So today 
On his day
I pray
For the way
Ask for help
To heal
Be whole
For him
For me
For all us parents

What is the way?
To this place
When the pain
Becomes our gift
When we surpass
The past

I know of
The way
Just staying 
On the Path
Is the challenge

So this day
November 14th
The day
Of my son's birth
6 years today
I commit 
To my path
Follow  the discipline 
Of my way
Because
I have tasted of it
I have dipped my toe in it

But I seem to choose
To go back
To where I feel safe
In fear
But 
Do 
I 
Really
Feel 
Safe 
There?
Just comfortable
Life 
Isn't a coach 
Megan dear

I am gentle with myself
Because
Support is #1
Encourage
Ourselves
To do the best we can
Because we all do the best we can

And yet
My fire 
Fire 
In my Phoenix boy too
Fire to transform
The past
To rise 
Up
From the ashes

So this year
This year
My boy
Is six
I unlock my fire
Golden Place
That is me
Without the baggage
Ruling
My legacy to the next generation
To living that place
Being that person
Strong and true
Calm and gentle

The fight is over
Struggle done
Unless
I want to carry it on
Within me
Give it to my son
But I don't
I really don't
So I might have to fight a little
For today
And tomorrow
To be a different way

Let it be done
For the past
It's gone
Here is now
We walk as
One

I ask for help
Support I need
To live 
Where 
Life is golden
We walk as One

Starting 
Now
This day
November 14th
Day is new
My boy
Half way
Between a tot and a teen

Our gift from God
Our children
Next generation
Here to move us forward
As we learn
How to restore the peace
Within us all
And our families
War is done

This year
I light the fire
Within me
The golden place
To heal 
War within me
And the family
Today
Rise up from the ashes
Of the past
To begin a new
To live my life
Like the children depended on it
Because they do